Sleep deprived but can't sleep...

It is 3:30 in the morning and I should be sleeping, but I keep thinking of all the things I need to do. Angie, the Public Health Nurse provided by the county is coming tomorrow to weigh and measure Ella and answer any questions Doug and I may have since she came out last. I'm really excited to see how much bigger my little Ella Bear has gotten! She feels SO much bigger and sturdier. I just feel terrible for her, she has a really bad diaper rash right now that is starting to peel and is very painful for her to go potty. It is very hard to have to change her diaper now, she gets so mad she starts to scream. I've definitely started to cry a few times with her. We brought her in to Urgent Care today and since we haven't received her insurance card yet, her prescription creams for the rash came to 70 dollars! I won't have it until Wednesday though, so we have some maximum strength over the counter creams and powders to help, and the doctor gave us some pointers on things to do at home with her to help. I just feel so bad. 

Doug and I both applied for a few jobs around the area, and they are a great hourly wage! I am praying we both get jobs at the same place, can carpool together, and then hire Brynia to be her nanny. :) That is very exciting to me! I can't wait to go back to work, and to provide Ella with everything she deserves. Having her was the best thing that ever happened to me, absolutely. She is actually starting to fuss, I better go feed her! More later. :)